Just Venting today

I have been stuck all week on what to write about. I have so many thoughts and feelings running through my mind and body yet I am unable to express them lately. Life is so funny like that. Anyhow, in my life I always try to be honest. Of course I tell white lies (like I am coming and end up staying home-LOL) but honesty is something I value in a persons character. If I am having a bad day at work I am honest about that,I don't say everything was great today. If I am having hard times with Alex because of his damn commitment issues I am honest about that. And when I am frustrated with life I tell those closest to me. What I can't stand are people who are not honest. Not honest with me or worse not honest with themselves. I don't know why it bother's me but it is clear that their lives are not happy. It does not matter what lies they tell me, it is what I see first hand. Secondly, I can't stand people mistaking me being honest with me not being happy. Oh of course I have day's of selfish thinking "POOR ME". But the truth is my life is really blessed. I owned my first house at 29 by myself, I have a good job, nice things, a great family and a man that I love who loves me just as much. Which brings me to my one last point me and Alex. It drives me nuts when people even think I would ever want what they have. Honestly, most of the people in my life are with their spouses either because they got pregnant, they have kids or they don't know how to get out. I would never want that life. If me and Al ever get married I want it to be because we love each other, we know each other and choose to be with each other not ever because we settled. So in saying all of the above, although at times I feel sad, I do love my life and everything GOD has given me.I am so fortunate.